Where is the LAB???

First Day In Work

2005-05-03T20:58:00.000+09:00

I insisted on working in such a low-paying job. I just had my first day in work. While I enjoyed my first day, I must admit that the work is hard. I am now a laboratory analyst in the Research and Biotechnology Department of St. Luke Medical Center. Whoa...after all the hard work in school, it still is a hard work afterall. Harder even. It's a low-paying job...yeah...but since the training there is good...I insisted anyway!!!
From now on, my job will be the focus of my life. I am planning to enjoy every part of it. Some friends are actually discouraging me to work there. But I know there are great rewards for hardworking people no matter what job they may have. Anyway, all the chemical analysis I'll be doing will help save lives. There...I must rest. I need enough sleep to sustain me throughout tommorow's work!!!

When Parting

2005-02-26T19:03:00.000+09:00

Day comes
Night flickers
Time runs
Outside
The world wakes up
Alone in my room
I shudder with the thought
Of an atmosphere
Fading into useless space
Without air
Without light
Without matter
Without life
I pause
Savoring its presence
Feel its ambiance
My voice is lifted up
A melody escapes
Across the corner
Its shadows rise
I stand up
Walk past the shadows
I run
I just run
Without turning my back
I stop to think
What if...
I catch myself
From the endless pit of dots
The pit is far deeper i can delve into
I run
I just run
Without regrets
My presence wouldn't honor its fading
Day comes
Night flickers
Time drags
The taxi waits

Rotenoids from Derris elliptica

2005-01-30T18:47:00.000+09:00

Yo! I am not done with my thesis yet...if you can't see any of the D.elliptica in your backyards anymore then probably it's with me now...because I had extracted rotenoids from them...FYI...rotenoids are flavonoids who have varied structures...this chemical compounds are natural pesticides and some of them are prohibit tumor growth in specific cancers...so far what I've done for my thesis is extract them using chloroform and acetone(separate extractions)...I have done HPLC and collected the fractions that gave discernible peaks in the chromatograph...I will be doing a HPLC of these fractions this wednesday to ensure that I obtained only compound per fraction...Also, i have started doing the bioassay to confirm the effectivity of the extracts as fish-poison...yeah...it's not exactly a fun thesis...but it is largely beneficial to agriculture...and if extended to a more intensive research, beneficial to cancer patients...i will be doing LC-MS of the fractions at a later date...hopefully...this will give you an idea about what i'm busy with these days...

A Poem I Like SO Much

2005-01-25T22:41:00.000+09:00

Letter To The World
by Hilary Coury
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Dear tear stained world,
Which misguided minds.
And yet somehow left my mind behind.
Who hated love yet loved hate.
And feared a child led by fate.

My eyes are dried up,
with no more drops to give.
Started hard and young,
now with no will to live.
This sphere of yours,
has been reshaped by violence.
War has left us with,
not a single moment of silence.
To my dear world.
Instead of investing money,
in your troubled case.
Were shipping millions of dollars,
into an empty outerspace.
But so what if humanity is starving,
and left homeless in the cold.
As long as the rich stay rich,
by means of oil being sold.
Innocent are dying but,
soldiers lives just pay a toll.
Bush suggests when enlisting,
they knew there sacraficial role.
But how does it hurt,
the fighters mothers less.
Death can not be repaired,
by a simple,"God bless."

To my Tear stained world.
Who misguided minds.
And yet, somehow, left mine behind.
Cry into my shoulder deep.
Cry dear child.
Weep, weep, weep.

Perhaps

2005-01-22T19:21:00.000+09:00

it is not often that clouds become spotless
and if it were spring in Tuscany, I would not
for the world, miss such a pricless surprise
not even if you're in bed and your voice remain sultry
i wouldn't stay, much more be forced to undress
bereft of pants, exposed in glory, a chest mat
pushing myself outside, the air without a feel of ice
will greet my flushed skin, then in no hurry
i will follow the trails in a wild forest
into the meadows, where the ground is somehow hot
i will lay there, and stare into the bluest of skies
perhaps i'll be spared of your unrelenting apathy

LAzy

2004-12-15T20:58:00.000+09:00

yeah..i've been very lazy the past months...i am quite busy with my thesis right now...the laboratory i am with is busy concocting some wonder drugs...lolz...hopefully i finish them up before it finishes all my dreams of graduating on time...see ya...will update a better blog soon...uhhhmmm...make that later...not soon...

Poem, After A One-Night Stand

2004-11-24T01:18:00.000+09:00

there is no poetry to write
even as with one night
the dance that was shared
rocked the room that was bare
and no music could match
a passion shown as such
all desires fanned a flame
in a very silly game
but should the mindless pen
reign over mindless men
all the sorry lines shall flow
hints of emotions in the brow
and no drink could erase
an affair's bitter aftertaste

Asymmetry of a Rectangular Prism

2004-11-24T01:12:00.000+09:00

If it is up to me to mess up your room
I would do so
With the mind of a stalker
If you so wish
All the pictures of your childhood
On the wall, by the mirrors side
And part of a lipstick
Smeared on the mirror
Screaming
I was there
Then
At least
Your room
Would not look all too centrosymmetric
The feature of its shocking contents
Placed side by side
Till the other walls vanish
And my freedom wall sinks the room

I, You

2004-11-24T01:11:00.000+09:00

I speak
And the sugar and bile in my words spew forth
Them words drone on you
And your ears filter them
Many still evade and penetrate into your mind
But your mind is a better filter
Choosing which to hear of and not to
Still your heart decides what you most feel at ease with
And finally
You move

Summer Painting

2004-11-24T01:07:00.000+09:00

Cookies and cream

Bits of your body
Exquisite sweat
Dew of your soul
Desires molding them together

Vanilla

Fragrant
But more important
Sweet

Quezo Real

Salt, Milk, Whey
Mold of Salt, Milk and Whey.
Key to your mouth

Rocky Road

Marsh Mallows
Soft as they are
Reminiscent of a good taste
Nuts
Pieces of it
Makes Chocolate
Part of a habit

Eating Ice Cream

On a summer day
With you
Is like painting
Your body
With the melts of creams
With a brush
A tongue
My Hands

F4T

2004-11-24T01:03:00.000+09:00

How would efforts purchase a mangga of fantasies,
When efforts draw blood, sweat and tears?
Are they, three, colors of unparalleled brilliance,
Painting scenes, Imelda would deem worth the millions?
Could it on one hand bring the rains falling on a parched farm,
Without the need to place faith on science and its methods,
And on the other, stop it with the rising of the flood?
Is it like a charm that of Sandara Park that swings the public’s sympathy?
Will it be as a blank page, worth J.K Rowlings brushing of quilt on it?
Would Frodo and his fellow hobbits travel miles to learn it?
Is it the panacea for a nation, worth dying for???

36 % Evil...lolz there's such a thing!!!

2004-10-04T20:10:00.000+09:00

I am 36% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

Just thought of trying to post this one as a proof of me being human...not God...not Beelzebub either...i'm not a monstrous murderer...and i'm not planning on creating laboratories that will cater to any murderous activities...lolz...there...it's a statement!!!

Chemical Kinetics

2004-09-28T22:47:00.000+09:00

There is a big difference between kinetics and thermodynamics apart from the way they are spelled. While both are important considerations in explaining chemical reactions. Kinetics deals with rates of reactions and thermodynamics with energies of reactions. Chemical kinetics has been a fascination on my part since my general chemistry days. Not that the challenging calculations made it all the more exciting but that it's principles are paradoxically simple but diffilcult to understand. Imagine explaining shifting equilibriums by coming up with different mechanisms of reactions. Mechanisms are very much dependent on stereochemistry, selectivity, quantum chemistry and structure of compounds. This saturday comes the final test on whethere I learned enough about Chemical Kinetics. I am taking up and advanced course on it. Problem is, I don't think I am prepared. ANd it's not fault either. IT has something to do with faulty teaching styles by a lazy professor. Add to it my stubborn belief that I will pass no matter how difficult it is for me to understand. It can be frustating...chemical kinetics is.

Reggae Music

2004-09-26T21:04:00.000+09:00

I thought regage music is something you wouldn't appreciate unless you're somewhere near a beach...but it sure wasn't the case with Ho'onu'a...the pair of Jared Keo and Christian Yrizarry came up with an interesting mix of songs in an album composed of reggae music...the songs have that tell-tale rhythm of reggae but its melody is the most noteworthy...the melody were not hastily done...they were thought of very well and they have come up with a melody that is upbeat but soothing at the same time...perfect for a beach party or when you're in your dorm and you're cramming for an exam just like me...if you guys wanna check them out...you have to sign up your account in myspace first...then go click music and just search for ho'onu'a...there!!!

I

2004-09-26T10:30:00.000+09:00

I, of the highest beings in the world, am nothing
and yet I am, that star in your lonely night of aching
I am that shower of rain that fills the earth's veins
and when a thing rolls and slides, I am that heat it gains
I am inanimate and yet I change from one to another
I am that gusts of cold wind that makes your body shudder
mass of stone in the fields, mists of sprayed fragrance in the air
and still later, I am that sinister character in your stare
I do nothing for I am nothing, yet I play a role
I have nothing for I am nothing, yet I'm not without a soul
unseen by your eyes and seemingly inert,
my body drags along the length of heaven's girth
I am that coke you're drinking now
and I can't answer when you ask me how
'cause I am that voice that just escaped your throat
reverberating through the room and dropping on your float
I'm dense and yet you don't feel me kiss your lips
holding your hair as I shred it to strips
hate me not for I am nothing
something you don't see, just a moment fleeting
hate me not for I don't stay put
search my leaves and not my root
over the fields of golden grains I pass
I am a force, be it inertia, weight or mass
turn around and find your way back
victory, satisfaction and vengeance you will lack...